Hello. Anyone out there? Or have I alienated you all so thoroughly that I’ve been banished from your bookmarks lists? Well, I guess there’ll be no response from those who’ve (rightfully) banished me, eh?
So, today, I decided to log into this blog account, and had to pause for a few heartbeats to remember my username and password. I didn’t even want to face the state of the email Inbox for this blog. What motivated to log in, you may wonder? The beautifully realistic bird showed up in my other Inbox, and reminded me of the hobby I’d forgotten about. What have I been doing in the meantime that I’d managed to obliterate this blog from my memory banks, you ask? Not much, I must answer. Studying, planning a business, backing out of planning a business, planning the business again. I developed ulcers–I know, I’m supposed to be too young, but I guess Allah is reminding me of my fragility. I treated said ulcers with nothing but herbal remedies, and alhamdulillah I’ve never felt better. I’ve been snapping with my camera, while not photo-blogging, and keep vacillating on whether or not to upgrade my picture-taker…and still haven’t come to a decision. And I’ve managed to get a cold a total of three times since the turn of the decade. Exciting, eh?
I must say, I feel like I’ve got nothing left to blog about. Some days, I read the news, and don’t even have an opinion. Other days, I read the news and want to ask the author, “Really? You only came to this conclusion now?” Other times, I read an article and wonder what they were smoking when they came up with that particular theory (whatever the theory was). At the end of the day, I realize I’m entirely too critical for my own good, or entirely to vacuous for the Internet’s good, and so I just let it go. That’s my nature, to let things go, and if there is one thing I’ve noticed about blogging, it’s that it forces me to never let things go. Is that good, or is that bad? I don’t know; all I know is that it occasionally gets to be exhausting. And with the Twittering and the Flickring, it really did get to be overwhelming. All that hyper-networking was doing my head in.
Then, I logged in here…and saw some comments that made me see stars. Oh, the beautiful comments made my day, they honestly truly did. But there were some others that made me almost bust a blood vessel. Seriously, if you think I’ve got a chip on my shoulder, fine. Tell me so. But accusing someone you don’t even know and have probably only even read very little from of being “judgmental and thinking God has Enlightened you” is over the line. Yes, I have opinions. That’s why I blog! I’m not enlightened. Again, that is why I blog! Then, they compounded their ridiculousness by thinking I’m censoring comments. First of all, if I did censor comments, it’d be no crime against you–it would just be my house rules. Secondly, given that my last post was for Eid al Fitr of last year, it doesn’t take genius mathematical abilities to realize I’ve quite let this blog go. It’s not you, it’s me. Really.
However, I must thank such individuals for freeing me from the blogger’s malaise I’d buried myself under. You made me realize I do have still a few more things to opine on. So, thank you.
And a humongous thank you to those who still visit, and took the time to email me. I expected to see a flat zero line on the stats box, but I was given a pleasant jolt of surprise. I can’t promise that I’ll blog frequently or at length, but I’ll certainly be around, inshaAllah. But before I blog, I must do something about updating that Ramadaan banner up there.